Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I'm here for good

So here’s the thing… I’m not someone who just decides one day that she’s going to write a blog, posts some entries, then gets too busy with “life” and forgets about her commitment, her Big Idea. No, no, very much on the contrary. I have been thinking about this very post for approximately 11 weeks now. I’ve been dreaming about this moment – because it would only be too good to be true and because it seemed like such an impossibility at the time… and I could finally explain my absence from the cyber world.

If I remember correctly, the last time I wrote I was well on my way of starting my first 5-day juicing cleanse – and I could NOT wait to tell everyone about my results. I was SUPER excited to be doing something so detoxifying and just for me, hoping to rid my body of any nasties I’d accumulated over my 32 years! (Yes, I realize it would take more than one round of juicing to accomplish that!) But as Life would have it, It had other plans for me… and my husband…

It’s no secret in my close circle of family and friends that Husband and I have been trying to start a family of our own for over a year. In fact, the cleanse was intended to be the “kick-off” to a healthy round of baby-making fun. I’d already worked up to 4 solid days a week of following a vegan diet, something that rewarded me with astounding results of health, vitality, and all round well-being (more on that in another post!).

We’d had our first miscarriage almost a year ago, we mourned, I healed physically – I’m not sure you really ever get over something like that. I’d had my surgeries (I’ll spare you and myself), I’d finally finished up my follow-up appointments, things were healing, Mother Nature was slowly getting back on track, and my uterus was finally anything but “hostile.”

As luck would have it (as well as having wonderfully devoted fertility doctor monitoring my every move) Husband and I conceived on our very first attempt back “in action.” Needless to say we were not expecting this to happen. I don’t think I ever expected it – hence my planning a juice cleanse right around this delicate timing in my calendar.

It’s interesting: I’d had no way of knowing if I was pregnant or not but as I filled my fridge with bottles of freshly juiced fruit and vegetables something inside was telling me not to go through with the juice cleanse just yet – to not to essentially starve myself (well really “you know who”) until we were sure. So we waited, and I drank the juice as snacks throughout the following days… and it was about 7 days later where a blood test at the doctor’s office confirmed what I’d dared myself to believe for a secret moment in time, while filling my fridge with those bottles of freshly juiced fruit and vegetables. We were in fact pregnant. (sshhhhhhhhh!)

Enjoy the journey... S