This is it!

My first official post... it's been a long time coming but I've finally (FINALLY!) decided to do something for myself. It's been something I've been thinking about and putting off for a very long time... years it feels like. By day I'm a graphic designer in the "crazy" world of advertising. These days however, in my forever quest to find happiness and balance, I am not so "crazy".

You see I used to work in Toronto. I've been lucky enough to work at 2 of the most prestigious (for their time ;) ) advertising companies in Canada. But with that came a lot of stress (too much), a lot of late nights (too many)... and for what....? NOT money! NOT promotions! For the sake of working in a really cool place, with really cool and crazy-talented people, but zero (zero!) respect and life... and raises dare I say. I was not a happy camper. 

By my second "gig" I was living in Burlington and commuting every single morning on our lame excuse for a commuter train, in and out of the city. In the winter, if I remembered to look up I might see the CN Tower, however most days I'd just see the inside of the office, the train, my car, my bedroom, and then do it all over again the next day (did you notice my husband went unmentioned there?!).

I remember the days I'd be sitting at my computer, busting my hump to get a job out or appeasing another ridiculous client request, and all of a sudden my mind would just wander away and start day dreaming. Of what?! Of another day job. No joke, I used to dream about working at Lululemon all the time. You know what I mean. Who does not feel totally zen and amazing the second they walk in to one of those stores... or maybe it's after... when I've made the big pretty purchase that's going to make me healthy and thin.

Or what about Crate & Barrel? I'd imagine being there too – selling all the big comfy couches, throwing swatches of leather and textiles all around, swishing trays of champagne glasses, fluffing graphic pillows, and the DISCOUNTS! K, I'm lost....

The point is I was always wishing I was somewhere else other than focusing on the present moment – the here and now. I was wishing away my young life for fear of taking a chance of any kind. I was being miserable to my husband, I was numbing the "pain" with (yummy) cocktails and I was corking my mouth with food in effort to shut up the voices in my head that knew I could do better than this... 

So here we are today – a new plan, a new journey for a shiny happy soul. S